I’ve always heard people say “just clear your mind” and I had thought i was able to do it before. But I was wrong. Today my mind went blank. But it wasn’t because i was trying to clear it or concentrate on something. I was just stuck on a thought. In the first stages of the thought,… so it hadn’t quite been established.
Lets try an explanation: a thought has a life cycle (for me atleast), phase 1: it’s triggered,.. phase 2: it’s established, phase 3: it concludes.
So I was stuck at phase 1,… It was a weird feeling… the thought never really got anywhere. And during this time, it felt like everything around me was all moving in slow motion, even all my movements. I was walking outside at this point, and even though everything was moving in slow motion,…. before i knew it I had walked from the gym to my car. It’s a very odd, yet calming feeling.
I started to wonder why this happened when it did. And i think it’s because I had one thought extremely prominent in my mind most of the afternoon. And that thought slowly took up the rest of my mind, until I had no room left for anything else… and BAM. It happened. Complete unexpected silence in my head. I didn’t really notice it at first (cause i wasn’t thinking) but then I did think about what just happened, how far i just walked with out thinking about a single thing around me,… I mean, I took everything in, I saw the side walk, the trees and everything, but I didn’t think about them. It’s a hard concept to understand. I digested the information that my eyes were seeing, but didn’t think about any of it.
And thats my tid bit for today. I’m gonna see if i can’t get back to that peacefulness.

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